Regardless of  the Consequences

thejournalofbisonjack:

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Around midnight, the man decided he

would stop pretending to be someone he wasn’t—

from now on he would just do and say as he pleased.

Firstly, he would stop trying to please everyone by

telling them what they wanted to hear; instead,

he would simply state his opinion regardless

of the consequences. He also decided that he

needed to become more brooding and mysterious.  

He would listen to Leonard Cohen, read Rilke and

Rumi. He would grow a beard and go to the gym,

where he would become lean not muscular. He

would start sleeping with other men’s wives—like

the French. He would write poetry, and practice

yoga. He would learn to meditate and visualize

his dreams. He would follow a new path, and find

meaning in his life. However, conscious of the fact

he had made similar promises to himself before,

he decided that this time he would borrow a pen

from the bartender and write it all down.

That’s when she walked in.

I think the saddest and yet happiest thing to ever realize is how alone you can truly be, even when those, and especially that significant other, you’ve given so much to won’t be there in that time. Youll see yourself more clearly than ever before and it has disappointed me. Also, people will always let you down, but because of that there will always be a time to test yourself and improve. If you’re alone, its a great time to know yourself.